Twenty Eight

Happy 28th Birthday King!

(Just imagine it is a big flashing birthday wish on the JumboTron during a Steelers' game at Heinz Field)

You have 24 hours to do as you wish.
Better get busy!
Wishing you fun times, and the best of days!

Congratulation on your excellent exam results Dr. Future Harvard's Professor!

A Lesson Learnt

Well 2010 is about to come to a close and we'll be welcoming in 2011, the new year.

As we slowly approach the end of another year, there is once again a visible feeling of expectation and excitement for what the upcoming year will bring. The start of a new year often stirs a sense of hopefulness that better times and new opportunities for improvement are just around the corner.

While everybody use the end of the year planning for what they need to achieve in 2011, I guess it’s equally important for us not lose sight of the lessons learned over the past twelve months-the Blacks and Whites, Ups and Downs, Successes and Failures.

Mine? It would be a long roll of lessons... bunches!

1. I learned that if we work hard, we will get far.

2. I learned that they are many people expect ‘free meals’ along the way without doing anything.

3. I learned that most often people don't say what they actually think but they say what they think the others want to hear.

4. I learned that relationship across the miles is HARD! So long as the person we are keeping the relationship with is worth it, YES it’s going to work.

5. I learned that everyone may hear what we say and friends will listen to what we say. To see who our best friends are, they are those who listen to what you don't say, they just understand us and know there's something wrong even when we have the biggest smile on our face. I thank God, I see true friends along the year.

6. I learned that we should not trust anyone but ourselves and that it is really hard to build up trust. But only in seconds everything can be shattered.

7. I learned it is natural to stop having chemistry with a certain person, and if we grow apart, just be happy for the good times, and know how lucky we were to have that great person part in our life.

8. I learned that men hate it when we talk about our ex-boyfriend.

9. I learned that men love women with brains more than those in miniskirts. But they like feminity.

10. I learned that I may still fall for bullshit. But I won’t be crying about it.

11. I learned certain men tend to get serious with their relationship and become TOO possessive. So watch out as certain guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

12. I learned men can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than women can.

13. I learned that it's not easy for a man to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

14. I learned to send ‘thank you’ notes - to thank everyone for their good deeds.

15. I learned not to procrastinate. We usually tend to procrastinate with the most difficult tasks until the last moment. The truth about those tasks is that most of the time they are not as bad as they seem.

16. I learned that only if our bodies and minds are both located in the same place at the same time, and we are fully present, we will find the true happiness we seek. Worrying about the future and chewing on ‘old bones’ from the past have little value to offer to us.

17. I learned not to push things hard, if it’s meant to be, it'll happen. I won’t screw up the best thing that ever happened to me anymore just because I’m little unsure about what I really want.

18. I learned that family is regardless the most important thing in my life. Sadly, like the diet, we have every intention to start living healthy but we just don't get around to it. I learned that we should grab the moment now, savor our time with parents and family, and not wait. Friends come and go, but family is forever.

19. I learned to be wide awake of the office politics.

20. I learned on how to deal with frenemies. (Just don’t be too close to them!)

21. I learned that giving to charity should be part of our life.

22. I learned that if you can’t get past the third chapter of a book, just dump it. Similarly, if you can’t stand a movie after the third scene… just stop!

23. I learned that sometimes we just need a day where we can hide in our room to make things better and at times we just need a super fun song like We Speak No Americano by Yolanda to dance like nobody’s business.

24. I learned the best and cheapest way to feel happy is by being close to God.

25. I learned that the word "OK" looks like a stick person tilting the head to the left! Ha-ha

One lengthy roll. There are many more things that I have learned in my Learning Year of 2010. But i think i should stop.

Oh 2011, give me more lessons. I’m learning all the time.


Congratulation to Malaysia Football team on the last night's triumph. Is Malaysia back on the Asian footballing map?

Early Riser

I love being able to get up, and greet a wonderful new day!

It's Saturday morning, and the 3 hours sleep that i had last night does not stopped me for being an early riser TODAY.

I used to start my day jumping out of bed and rushing to get myself ready. Lately, sadly, that excited feeling isn't there anymore. I would walk into work, looking rumpled and barely awake. Blame the Night Owl life that i'm living now-staying up late, streaming movies, surfing the net, 'stalking' and jadajada! Oh and yes, all the take home office work! *Cant they realized that when we are refreshed, we are ready for a full day at work each day?

I'm going to renew my morning ritual from today. I miss being a morning person.The sunrise... how the day slowly gets brighter and when the brilliant colors start to seep into the sky! Beautiful. I miss my morning jog! I miss the quietude.

Saturday,
I am fortunate to have woken up and alive.
I have a precious life, I am not going to waste.
I am going to expand my heart and have kind thoughts towards others.
I am not going to get angry.
I am going to be happy.
And I am going to make this feeling stay every morning, every day!

There is no better way to start off your day than to wake early! Hey, i have extra hours now!


Breakfast date with JUJU. (✿◠‿ ◠)

Until I Say "I DO".

It’s the month that is full of love. When February is known as the Month of Love to the rest of the world, I choose December in its place.

It is the second week of December and my weekends for December are all marked with weddings. I have been receiving a frequent wedding invitations from friends these days, and been thinking about it on how many people of my age are, at this point, settling down and starting their own families - another obvious indication that I, certainly, are coming of age.

While I don’t have any plans of tying the knot just yet (and this post has got nothing to do with getting married), I confess that I like browsing through wedding sites lately because let’s face it, weddings - the colors, the themes, the photographs, the flowers, laces, and ribbons, the diamonds, the giveaways, the invitations – Ohemgee, are just so pleasurable to look at.

I’m not saying go and be inspired to get married. I’m saying, go and be inspired to do something out of ordinary. ;)

Hehe.

The love heat is warming the house today. My brother is getting engaged tomorrow (hooray)! YES, my YOUNGER brother is getting engaged, YES, that should have happened to me first and YES, I'm very happy for him. After the long 11 years of dating, I guess it is just the right time for him to take their relationship to the next phase.

Being the eldest of the family and still not wearing a ring is going to be a big thing tomorrow, something which I can foretell. "When are you going to get married?" is going to be another ‘scripted’ question from relatives. Just like meeting the relatives during the Eid and everyone would be asking when I will be getting married. It was intense! Or rather I call it annoying.

I'm a big fan of being true. I would say something vague and honest, like, "Oh, when the time comes..." And then quickly change the subject: "So, how are you doing?" "Any fun Eid plans?" "How's your daughter doing?" "I love your Kebaya, where did you get it?”(You catch my drift...) If all else fails, I just grinned (evilly) and say: "Next school holiday, actually. Just wait for the card".

Well I’m still finding fun and witty responses to the questions tomorrow. Just to make sure that it won’t blight my good vibe and the ‘loveliness’. Just got to be happy that someone else has found the one, and remember that mine will always be best for me, doesn't matter if it is first or last!

But I think I have some good thought of letting him jumping the queue...
1) To use this as a test run to how I want my engagement/wedding to be and
2) Good things come to those who wait. ^_^


Ayah, Happy 58th Birthday! God knows how the world you mean to me. I LOVE YOU!

p.e.l.i.k

Dear Mr. Stalker
I'M TRULY SORRY...
But you just got to eat this.

Weirdo.

Just wanna let you know that you're so weird.
You're so weird that you don't even know that you're weird.
EVERYONE keeps telling you that you're weird but you wont listen because you're weird.
How weird can you get, weird?

Stupid.

I don't think you can even understand the term stupid.
Dont be so stupid, but you are stupid.
You dont even have to act stupid to be stupid.
You try to act smart but you are so stupid.
I hope you know how stupid you are because if you don't see that you're stupid, you will always be stupid.

Drama Director.

Im so sorry because you're so dramatic.
It's probably your fault for being so dramatic.
Well i guess it cant be help since you are so dramatic.
If life is sad for you , its because you're so dramatic.
No words can describe how dramatic you are...

Weirdo, Stupid, Drama Director...

That's why I'm updating a post on your weirdness, stupidity and drama.
I really hope that you will read this (and please stop stalking!) and learn that you are so weird, stupid and dramatic.
If you finally realize that you're so weird, stupid and dramatic,
You better buy me ice cream cause it is not weird, stupid and dramatic.
But you probably wont, because you're so weird, stupid and dramatic.

With much, extra "love",
yanna


Truth hurts.

Words Of Congratulation

There’s no denying that when a woman falls in love it’s really tough to ever let that go. Most of us recognize that love isn’t something that pops into our lives everyday… When we meet and fall in love with the man we believe is our one true love, we’re going to hold onto him with everything we’ve got.

Beautiful.

When that man decides he no longer wants to be with you, (or he just couldn’t be with you for whatever reason that he might throw!) the pain can be really horrendous. It’s really hard for anyone to understand what you’re feeling unless they’ve also gone through a somber break up. The only thing you can think of is how you can get him back.

Beuti-FOOL.

Chop-chop!
OK, My ex-BF got married last night!

:)

So I dated this guy for over EIGHT years. He is a really nice guy I would say. It was all the way a CHOC-DIPPED-MARSHMALLOW journey. Sweet and nice. Ok, there were NUTS in between the nyummy bites but things were fine until a mysterious infection stole our happiness spread by the virus named FATE. (Infection got worse when the SHANA’s virus came! It is like a cancer, without me realizing, slowly its killing the relationship. TQ, oh-I’m so-lucky-you-are-not-my-MIL!)

We are clear on the reasons why we broke up in the first place, and know that we don't want to get back together and hurt ourselves again.

God is fair. So I rather call it a DESTINY.

We then shifted the partnership to a friendship.

It's the dreaded four-words... "Can we be friends?" A must question to be asked when a relationship hits the rocks. In reality, the questions should be "Should we be friends?" And, if so, "How will we delineate that relationship?"

Rules were set.

To stick by them? It was hard. That I have to confess.

Good friendship is what we hold.

Now he is married.

As the confession made, it is really hard to stick by the set rules.

Handling the relationship with someone we broke up with can be quite tricky. Sometimes we may feel uncomfortable and completely out of place just being around them, and sometimes we long to see them. Whatever said and done, it is true that we certainly had a lot in common and shared a good understanding, which took us as far as 8 years in a relationship.

But now, things are not going to be the same. The friendship shouldn’t stay. It may not be a really good idea to turn the bitter romance into a sweet friendship when one of us is married.

We had our last goodbye on Monday. It was a really sad end. Not at all have I felt bad that he is getting married. But the fact that I’m losing a brother and a best friend.

Yes, I’m being invited to his reception tomorrow. And NO, I don’t think I’m going.

Just wishing you the happily ever after you deserve. Congratulations on your wedding day! May the years ahead be filled with LASTING joy.


Friendship can be rekindled when we both are married. Next year?

The Icky Feeling Last Much Less Today

I’m laying in bed with flu for company. What a nice way to spend the 3 days leave.

Oh yes, I guess it is not too late for a Deepavali wish to be pronounced. (The mood of writing doesn’t arrive yesterday!)

Happy Deepavali to those celebrating. Happy New Year with plenty of peace and prosperity.

Today, it brings back memories of my Wit-Bix kid. When I used to get sick a lot. Flu. Tired. Low-grade fever. Asthma.

This was my way of saying “no.”

When I was a girl, the only way I knew how to be whoever I was and the only way to get attention and have an excuse to say no to something was to feel physically bad.

What a huge waste of energy that was!

So what’s your way of saying No? Do you have to tell yourself a “story” that makes saying “no” okay?

So let’s grow ourselves up today and tell ourselves how amazing, how beautiful, how powerful, how attractive we are. Tell ourselves about the zillions of options we have in love and work and play.

Imagine them all.

I’m going to look after myself in bed and on the couch.

Reading, sleeping, complaining, smiling, laughing, listening to music, dancing as best I can…perhaps stepping outside to the lake this evening breathing the greens. (minus the Mat Rempits and PDA couples please!)

And MAYBE working too-3 audit reports and 1 audit checklist to be completed, though that’s likely not helping me here, now.

Now I’m not saying that our brains and emotions are why we’re sick, but stress and emotions are undeniably such a huge factor in anything that limits us in any way.

Lets find what floats our ship today .

And let’s have fun doing it.


Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore.

Blindfold

None of the colours, seem to speak the truth
None of the colours, could give me just one clue
None of the colours, could paint a perfect tune

Could i say sorry?

Through shades of words i sing
Could you forgive me? and all the fears i bring...

Look at this closely, past of all that you can see,
tell me there's a place, always a space for me.

Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears will wash away all the bitterness...

VII days - Waiving Goodbye to King Hafiz

♪ Country road, take the King home, to the place, he belongs, Pennsylvania... ♪

In 3 hours, he will be on a plane back home to Philly. It is the end of my sad countdown. (Being positive for the past few days really helps!)

Oh i'm so looking forward for my Spring vaccay!
Or might it be a Winter break?

It is a start of a new countdown now. And i will call it a countdown to the Lalaland.


Couldnt sleep for the whole night. Am i turning myself into a nocturnal? But my eyes are. Owlyana.

VII days - Waiving Goodbye [minus 1]

I wanted a perfect ending, now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.

YES, delicious ambiguity.

To my dearest King,
It's all said and done, it's real, and it's been fun...


It is the end of something simple and the beginning of everything else. I just gotta believe.

VII days - Waiving Goodbye [minus 2]

I just want to be happy in these remaining days and making it the most beautiful and wonderful moments of all. For i know, no matter how hard it is for me to waive the goodbye, i just couldn't run from the farewell.

I'll just keep with me all the memories...
For it to be my sunshine after the goodbye.

See you again soon, King. At least I hope so...


Iftar with the Mellowees + loved one(s)

VII days - Waiving Goodbye [minus 3]

Why are we attracted to the same people like us?
Are people usually attracted to someone who looks like us?

I guess it is true.




Mongolians?

VII days - Waiving Goodbye [minus 4]

We only part to meet again. So happy trails to you, until we meet again in March..

zzzz. Replacing the sleep.

VII days - Waiving Goodbye [minus 5]

After long wearing meeting since morning, I guess I just need my stress reliever. Something to help find my inner peace and giving myself the moments of relaxation.

And the best way to combat the stress and when you are unable to break away from the stress in your daily life?

Light a scented candle!

Using candles in the office can relieve much stress and help me to relax after a long hard day of series of meetings. I know, sometimes not all of us just have time to practice meditating yoga or sitting in the hot tub. We are all just too busy at times, so light the candle and make good use of them.

And my all time fave, the Tindra Apple Cinnamon candle!

Oh! The smell of the Apple Pie makes me feel hungry.

And it is 5 more hours to iftar…

"Hey! Miss Purple is having a new friend, Mr. Greeny!" - Thanks to King.

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option?

VII days - Waiving Goodbye [minus 6]

Selamat Tinggal!




Lets fly to the Lalaland!

VII days - Waiving Goodbye [minus 7]

A countdown to a melancholy episode starts today. With all the good times, how do I say adieu to this amazing journey?

And no matter how far you may go, in my heart you’ll always be there...

Well, I suppose there's never a right time to say goodbye. So I just got to comprehend.

A MOMENT IN TIME
You passed through my life and left your mark,
You may never pass my way again,
Or you may stay forever...

No matter what,
I enjoyed the talk,
I enjoyed the walk,
I am blessed, for this moment in time...

I asked myself...
"Why him?"
"What attracts me to him?"
"What makes me want him more?"
Oh, there is so much i want to know...

Even if question are not answered,
There is one thing i want you to know,
I've been blessed by the effect you had on me,
IN THAT MOMENT IN TIME.
yanna 160810 2200hrs

The confession night

Is Scrabble a word in Scrabble?

He’s the “Numbers Guy,” and I’m (supposedly) the “Words Girl.”
Guess who wins at Scrabble every time? I’ll give you a hint — it’s not me.

But, I’ve learned exactly why I come out behind - lack of strategy.

I’m usually the over-eager player who puts down any word that appears, regardless of points. However, my Scrabble mate’s competitive nature (and endless chanting of, “I’m the champion!”) finally got to me.

Going to play with patience and calculation tonight… I just want to win! *crossing-fingers*


I realized the same strategies could also be applied to everyday life.

Leaving?

Have you ever just scribbled on a paper, day dreaming, while drawing his name...
You'd be thinking about him all day, but spending one day without him just wouldn't be the same.

Have you ever spent the whole day with him, but at the end it felt like the time just passed you by...
It's like your time was up but you didn't wanna let him go because you weren't ready to say goodbye.

Have you ever just missed him like crazy, and at times it was like you never really knew what to do...
You'd try and do just about anything to spend time with him especially when you know that he will soon be far from you...

Good night.


Searching for Scrabble mate.

It is a real joy to:LEARN

Do not say, “It is morning,” and dismiss it with a name of yesterday. See it for the first time as a new-born child that has no name"
from Rabrindranath Tagore’s Stray Birds

We are all wanderers. It is so simple and so clear that I sometimes feel that our minds are fogged up with complexities that blind us. I look for bliss in things of beauty, sometimes in retail therapy, sometimes in my work, and sometimes in a friendship with a new friend.

All very different depictions of magnificence and beauty, but which serve to open my eyes and heart.

But as Tagore put it, "For the first time as a newborn child that has no name" and speak of things as we would like them to be, perhaps we would view our lives as rising toward amazing chapter or losing ground and moving back to an end. I don’t know….

Well, the best does not come alone. It comes with the companionship of the all… So allow me to believe that if there is one among those stars that guides my life through the unknown.


I have become my own version of an optimist. If I can’t make it through one door, I’ll go through another door OR I’ll make a door. ;)

Hating The Thing I LOVE Most

Ok, it may be a bit theatrical title, but that is the fact. I love being intense, and I put great meaning into all and relentlessly searching for meaning in my life.

But every so often I might be too intense and exploring for the meaning to a great extent that I might let pass living.

I suppose at times I just need to be free like the white dove. Just ‘get over it’ or trying to make cheese from the milk. Alleviate the pins and needles and just live life.


Happy New Year Dearest Blog.